I know I shouldn’t be posting all this on here. I’m letting too much get to me, stupid things, unimportant things, stress in my private life, and the making really stupid things (like yesterday) upset me. It doesn’t matter. I feel stupid being upset over something so stupid and unimportant, especially when there is no way he would notice or care anyway.
I know it feels as if he avoids me or as if I’ve done something for him to not like me when I have barely ever spoken to him, in person or online, so I doubt that. I doubt he has a clue who I am despite having met. I’m sure it is just coincidental and I’m being over sensitive and over thinking everything.
I know I shouldn’t let this bother me and I don’t know why it does. I should just let it go and not worry about any of this. It’ll make life easier as then I won’t have to worry about trying to talk to him and not being able to.
No, this happens on the forums.
I know I shouldn’t try and talk to him, that it is pointless. He does this thing, and maybe it is a coincidence, but I have seen him do it far to many times to think so. If I sign on when he is on, he signs off. Don’t know why. Started last spring.
This is the type of thing that makes me think I would be bothering him if I were to try and talk to him after a show. I just don’t see the point unless I honestly knew it isn’t really an issue with me.
The gift I have for J, hoping I give it to him either as myself or anonymously, needs to be finished before the concert coming up. I have some options on what to do with it, but not sure yet. Idea are keychain, necklace or bookmark, maybe something else entirely.
I know I want to give him this, I just don’t know if it is weird to give him something.